ok well this is my first entry. hmmm how annoying is life? I just start moving on with things and somebody drags my past kicking and screaming into the present. My brother spent the weekend with a friend of ours, during the weekend he brought up an incident between me and this friend that happened years ago and that i thought was over and done with. Obviously not! Anyway by doing this he has managed to remind me how crazy i am about this person he said he felt the same but we agreed it would never work and how much it had hurt when he left (he moved away) Only now that he has reminded me how i feel and brought all the pain back he casually drops into the conversation that this persons new girlfriend might be pregnant. How did this all get dragged back up? Through my ex boyfriend! This friend came to visit and my ex got jealous (we were together at the time)He listened to somebody who was just stirring trouble instead of trusting me. Any way him not trusting me reminded my brother that something had happened and he didnt know what. So he decides to drop it casually into teh converstion while he is there. He says he wanted to hear it from the horses mouth so to speak. Very Nice bro thanks alot!

I still haven't heard from the hospital about my operation to have an ovarian cyst removed already been through two miscarriages in the last couple of months because of this cyst. Was supposed to have heard by now but hey I'm not crippled with pain yet so i guess it aint important!

On a happier note my ebay shop Gemz treasures is doing well! I made another two sales tonightso its doing better than i expected.

Anyway I have my hot water bottle and my bar of chocolate ready and im gonna crawl into bed. I just hope I dont get woke up by my gerbils at three in the morning again. They escaped AGAIN this morning i spent all of last night catching them just to find them gone again when i got up typical! Bloody things I should have sent them with my ex when he left he wanted them in the first place!

Anyway night night sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite! If they do bite them back!!!